Me - walking with pram up our street, Batsman and Bowler on board. Walk past a neighbour (elderly, slightly hard of hearing, very "Aussie" old bloke).
Neighbour says to the Batsman...."So what did you get, a brother or a sister?" Batsman.......silence. Me ...."The Batsman got a little brother" Neighbour....."What's his name?" Me...."His name is Nate" Neighbour......."Snake?.....You called him Snake?" Me.....explain and spell the name out for him, all the while trying so hard not to laugh. I can just imagine him thinking "Geez, these young people of today calling their kids weird names like Snake!!!"
Batsman....very unsure what to make of neighbour!
So anyway....here is a recent pic of "Snake" with the Batsman and the Captain.
Last night at 7pm Melbourne time….when the time rolled around to light candles and remember our precious babies…the Captain and I were so very fortunate to find ourselves at a David Gray concert. An extraordinary songwriter, singer, musician – he is probably my all time favourite. And when he sang last night, there was light, so much light - little sparkly lights that glittered all around the concert hall. I figured that these beautiful little lights were my candle and while I listened to David Gray sing I thought about lots of things but mainly I thought about our precious angels and the angels of the so many amazing people I have met here in blog land.
When he sang this song I am about to share, there were tears in my eyes….I am not sure why, I had never heard it before but its purity, simplicity and beauty touched me deeply. Here it is…..for you and me and for all of our babies.
PS: Today is one year since we lost our precious second angel....remembering always and honouring and loving you through the lives of your beautiful brothers
Today is October 15 - Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. Light a candle at 7pm to send light all around the world and remember all the angel babies who leave a forever imprint on our hearts and lives. Remembering our tiny, tiny angels - August 10, 2006 and October 16, 2008 - remembered, loved and missed.
The Batsman has discovered his shadow these last few days. As the sun has begun to beam off the paving in our back yard, he has begun to notice his shadow. He makes shapes and giggles excitedly at the discovery of his own movement cast on the ground by the sun. It is a joyful thing to watch.
I have discovered some of my own shadow in the last few weeks too. Not the fun kind of shadow that the Batsman is playing with but the darker sadder kind of shadow. It’s the kind of shadow that can sometimes hang around, unwanted and wearing, especially for a gal with a new baby. My shadow is the one where I am hard on myself and expect way too much, worry about getting things ticked off on a list, feel overwhelmed and slightly panicky about how much there is to do in a day and whether I am up for the task of mothering two small boys. It’s not the kind of shadow that is your friend like the shadow the Batsman has found. It’s more like one I need to encourage to move on. I’m watching this shadow, keeping an eye on it and I won’t let it get to me too much.
I think I just need to play out in the sun with the Batsman a bit more.
Relax Take your time Slow down Drink water Eat when hungry Don't be so hard on yourself Just deal with what is in front of you Don't worry about the housework or the "to do" list or the washing or the mess Make a cup of tea
Play with the boys Walk along the river Go to the zoo Plant veges in the back garden Enjoy them and their childhood - it's all too short. Count your blessings.
